Hmmm, how's our week so far guys? This week is kinda awful for me. :(
Just heard a very bad news from my sister this morning. And that problem can't get out from my head til now, then I have a lots of things to do for my coursework.
My tutor just give the details about our coursework this Monday, and asked us to submit it on 8th November. Can you believe it? We only have 10 days to do that coursework in group! She supposed to give the details since last week, but she's late and now we have to do it in a rush. Though next Monday and Tuesday is holiday. We still have many many homeworks. I have to make my first draft for FES essay, FES homeworks, Math homeworks, BS1's business plan and the presentation as well.
And, the due date for BS1's coursework and FES's first draft is on the same day! I feel like gonna die soon :s
You know, when you feel bad, and when you look out there and the weather is awful. You'll feel totally worse! It's very gloomy in here. Very cold, and it's getting colder and colder from day to day. No sun. I wish I was in Jakarta, when I'm sad at least when I see out there there is sun who is still shining brightly and give me strength. Here? The rain just can make me feel even worse :s
And, it's getting colder and colder nowadays, I have no proper jackets. I want to buy but it's expensive. I have to save money in here, so I totally can't buy all things I want and spend all the money that easily.
My tutor have ever told me a few weeks ago that November is a really stressful month or some international new student in Lancaster. Cause we have a lot of works to do, and the weather is awful, we started to think back about our hometown all the time. Everything seems just getting worse, like what I feel right now :s
Well, I'm feeling totally bad right now. I have to think about all of my assignments, think about my family, think about my sister's problem, think about money and all my expenses here, and thinking about the weather when I have no proper jacket to welcoming winter.
I have no one to talk about all of this problems, and so I just can leave all of my confession in here, which is my personal blog. If you know my twitter account, I started to tweet some unimportant tweets to confess my feeling. Well that's me, when I tweet a lot, it means I am sad at that moment. When I tweet nothing and just retweet other ppl's tweet. It means I'm totally fine. Can't bear to tweet those silly sad words although I know it will make some ppl feel irritated. Well, sorry if you guys feel so, but I totally have no other way to confess my feeling right now.
I have my friends in here though, and they're having some other problems as well, with their classmates, etc. It makes me awake and make me feel a little bit better. Cause by hearing their not very good story, I know that, it's not just me who is feeling bad right now. Some other ppl feels like that too and yeah, I'm not alone. So, let's just think positive. I hope I can solve all of these problems as soon as possible.
Just can work harder and hope everything's gonna be fine at the end. (Amen) This 2 weeks is gonna be quite tough for me. Started to get busier and busier. Hope I can do my best to pass all of this too complicated things.
So, hello November!!! Usually I always feel excited when welcoming November and December cause it's getting closer to the end of the year. But now? No I'm not excited as well. I can't welcoming November nicely because of the weather, lol. Seriously I'm not ready for the end of autumn especially winter :(
Hm,, that's all, well just ignore this post guys, all of this words are simply about my not really important confession. Let's work hard to make everything better. Just like my sister (Evelyn) said
"It can be done. It must be done."
My advise : when you feel bad, down, depressed (just like my feeling right now). Go out and talk to your friends, when you found out that other ppl are having problems as well. You'll realize that you're not the only one who is down right now.
It's normal to be stress and down. But you should know how to get up too, to work harder and harder then to solve all your problems. Well, this is life. There are blessings, but there are problems too. You can feel very bad, but you can get up and feel happy again. Just like a roller coaster. Life's all about up and down.
Just like TOP's rap in "STILL ALIVE" song
"We're living that, we're living that GOOD LIFE"
"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass. It's learning how to dance in the rain!"
"I'm not okay, you're not okay, and that's okay!!!"
"I'm not okay, you're not okay, and that's okay!!!"
Cheers from Lancaster,
Jeslyne =)
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